I sometimes fear of wanting to talk to past friends, especially my real life ex-friend that only people and my bestie who I'm close to, am fearful of, because I'm not making enough money, and despite calling the kettle black, they will still revert back to being immature, or, they are not the people that I used to know, and hate my opinion, no matter how little it is, in terms of simplistic interests, will not be my other friends... especially with me being picky, (the world is changing, and I have... a bit of a future phobia) I'm fearful of expressing my own opinion on shows, movies, books, etc., simply because people that are close to me, or aquatint with me, will hate or detest me. I most often than not, am good at hiding my emotions through all people that I'm DMing for reasons obvious. And... I'm very super inadequate, because my art and my profession isn't up to date as any independent creator are making. I still have fears, let alone nightmares of being homeless, and me being